There are some hot gingers
Yes, this is exactly how it sounds.
So I’m versatile and my boyfriend isn’t. I didn’t think it would matter much, because I’ve been in relationships where I’ve completely bottomed. or topped like once or twice. And my current bf and I have been together 9 months. My longest. But my last relationship(serious one) we were completely versatile. We’d flip flop, like 2 or 3 times a day. We had serious sexual chemistry. Now I believe that topping/bottoming between myself and another is all chemistry. If I don’t feel that they want it, I won’t even think about topping with them. And my bf, before he even told me he’s a complete top, I knew. I haven’t even fantasized about topping him. I just don’t feel it.
But recently, I’ve felt strong topping urges. Like, at work(the gay bar I’m a waiter at) I see all these cute latinos or white guys(some black guys too) and I just want to FUCK the shit out of them. Like UGH! And with my guy, we haven’t had sex much lately, cause of me. Like I don’t get the feeling of bottoming. I swear it’s so much work. I don’t know how I did it before. I feel like now I have to mentally prepare myself to do it, more than I ever have before. And it’s not because I don’t want to have sex with him, I just don’t want to bottom all the time. Or prepare to bottom.
I’m a monogamous person. So I would never cheat. No matter how physically attracted I am to the another guy. I have something real and the point of a relationship is getting through some tough times. Though this isn’t tough, cause it’s sex and our sex is great. Temptation is tough, but I feel that sex doesn’t last forever. So, it’s not the most important thing. I enjoy our sex life, extremely. Just one little thing is off.
Ugh!!! Whatever! That’s what my fleshlight is for…kinda